Lacey Haynes

Hi, I'm Lacey. 

If you like your nipples free, your birth radicalised, your motherhood elevated, your sexuality empowered, your pussy bowed down to, your sacral chakra healed, then you've come to the right place.  -L x

 

I Surrender

I Surrender

I’m about to bleed. It’s at the door and I have to answer. My womb is full and my pussy is pulsing. It’s time to let go.
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I remember exactly two times during labour uttering the words, “I don’t think I can do this anymore.” There was no part of me that saw an alternative to “doing this” - I knew I would - but in voicing those words I was able to contract for a moment, allowing the sweetness of surrender to follow.
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Leaning against the wall in Fox’s room after breastfeeding her for the fifth or sixth time the other night, I wept. I held her and I wept, “I don’t think I can do this anymore.” The answer that came from my womb to permeate my cells was this: “If this is what my life is for, I surrender.”
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The vocalisation of uncertainty can be a gateway into greater release. After an otherworldly love making session on Saturday, bridging two tired bodies and entwined souls back together, I descended into a new layer of understanding. Every part of me opened and released, even my sore hip and knee let go. I wept on the floor in happiness and sorrow: “If this is what my life is for, I surrender.”
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I surrender to motherhood. To wifehood. To being entwined with other souls. I surrender to the tedium of being a householder. I surrender to having my moments pressed together. I surrender to my destiny of having another child someday. I surrender to this journey of family. I surrender.
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My life is a co-creation with an external force that radiates from within me and cycles back to animate my life. I am in a constant ebb and flow with the other humans I orbit. I am not in this alone. I know that there’s a wink and a joke at play and it’s that this life of mothering, this seemingly simple and pedestrian journey, is actually a roadmap to ascension. In having to forget myself I actually get to find out who I truly am. Through surrender, nothing superficial remains. The blood can begin to flow. / art by Maisie Cousins

Birthing Myself

Birthing Myself

Addition & the Sacral Chakra

Addition & the Sacral Chakra

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