Creating & Mom Life
I’m having one of these moments. I’m sitting under a circular skylight that traces the line of a Victorian well, a flowing stream of feminine power, right below the foundations of my very home. My neighbour said he heard the maidens of the well sing when the builders discovered it during the renovations.
The new moon arrived this morning and with it, my blood began to flow. I’ve just tended to my altars and burnt a smudge stick that I rolled myself with sage from my garden. I’m looking back and looking forward and looking right at this moment. It’s been one full lunar cycle (one month!) since I began sleeping through the night again (note: sleep is possible again my exhausted mama friends).
On the last new moon, I received the intention: “I am here, I am clear, I am channeling the divine” and with that, I created the content for WHOLE. I set the ticket limits and thought wow, wouldn’t it be amazing to have 35 women in my course and now I have 52 (!) with emails still coming through from women wanting to participate. For the first time since becoming a mother, I’ve paid the rent, paid the bills and enjoyed the energetic flow of receiving money in exchange for my work. It feels good.
Without rushing or packing my life to the brim, I’ve slowly and diligently created WHOLE. In the mornings before Flynn left for work, sometimes during Fox’s nap-time and some evenings too, I’ve recorded video lessons and crafted a two week journey into sexual and creative liberation. I’ve had moments of self-doubt, moments of fuck yes! and mostly an overwhelming feeling that I’m bringing my life’s work into the world; that I’m channeling a well of wisdom that has nothing and everything to do with me all at once.
I’m happy and sleepy and energised and full. I’m power and grace and a wellspring of wisdom. I’m embodied and free, sexual and wild, creative and alive. I am WHOLE. I’ve just shared the first lesson and practice with the WHOLE group and am feeling my body sigh YES! that this new journey has now begun. I’m going to have a bath, eat rose chocolate, walk in the sun and relish in the magnificence of bringing a project into the world. -Lx