Lacey Haynes

Hi, I'm Lacey. 

If you like your nipples free, your birth radicalised, your motherhood elevated, your sexuality empowered, your pussy bowed down to, your sacral chakra healed, then you've come to the right place.  -L x

 

Addition & the Sacral Chakra

Addition & the Sacral Chakra

I quit drinking coffee when I quit drinking alcohol nearly three years ago. On a sunny early summer’s day at a farm cafe a couple months back, I found myself alone at a picnic table drinking a soy latte.
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I felt naughty and free. I’d wanted coffee only a handful of times since quitting and this was the first time I’d gone with the desire. It tasted good. I felt wild and I liked it.
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I’ve had lots of socially acceptable addictions over the years. Addiction depends on the why and the how. Why is it we’re using? How is it impacting us / our lives? For me, coffee was an addiction (and has become one again) not because I drink copious amounts or even because I drink it daily but because I use it as a way to escape.
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I often drink coffee to avoid the truth of my sleepiness or lack of motivation, or an unnamed desire to feel differently in the moment. I’ve also used coffee as punctuation — to give form to my day and my life. I’ve used it as something to look forward to; something to hinge my day on, to give it meaning and shape. These reasons don’t sit well with me.
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Addiction is born in the sacral charka, the energetic centre in the body responsible for creativity, reproduction, fertility, sensuality and sexuality — it is the centre of feelings and emotions.
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Since starting up again, I feel less emotionally connected and less immediately intuitive. I can feel my cycle changing. I feel more heady and less embodied. I’m finding it hard to differentiate my natural internal rhythm from what is being exacted by the caffeine.
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After a week of trying to decide, I bought an espresso machine online last night. Within ten minutes of placing my order I was on the phone cancelling it. This was the moment I needed to recognize I’m engaging in a behaviour that isn’t elevating me. In fact, it’s impacting me negatively in the very area of life I currently hold most precious.
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It’s been illuminating to have this brief dalliance because I can see and feel so deeply how this insidious little java habit transforms my ability to access the breadth of my superpowers as a woman. Now, to kick the cup (again). -Lx

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